Maaan...parents just seem to be bugging everyone lately.

I've read several blogs and all of them seem to be complaining about their mom or dad...or even both. I don't only read about people's complaints, I'm also hearing it from friends. What the hell?! I mean, I know that it's the parents job to make their kids life a living hell...well, sometimes...but why are they doing it all at once?

Well, I already wrote about the whole not graduating in white thing...I mean...you swear like I wanted to graduate in blue. When we were taking cap and gown pictures...in the R.O room...the people graduating in white had light on their side as if they were angels or something...while the people graduating in blue...had darkness. Maaan...that sucks! I'm not saying that I hate the people graduating in white, I mean...I'm really proud for my friends...I just wish that I could be with them...you know, actually have my dad proud of me and not disappointed. You know what even sucks more? How I have to follow in my brothers foot steps. My oldest brother graduated being in the National Honor Society (NHS), and throughout college he was able to maintain a 3.8 gpa. As for my 2nd oldest brother, he not only graduated high school being in NHS but he also graduated high school being the salutatorian...and throughout college he maintained a 4.0 gpa. And here I come graduating high school with a 3.3 gpa. DAMMMN IT!

I'm still getting lectured about it...I'm getting lectured that I'm not studying hard enough and all that other bull crap. I mean, I can't actually speak my mind because they see it as "talking back"...argh. Maaan...WHATEVER! I hate this.

I'm taking my test this Saturday (May 4)...you know what I'm planning to do...stay away from the internet, blogging, chatting, and checking email. I'm also gonna TRY to stay away from T.V...I'll just record all the shows that I usually watch. Just to make my fricken dad and brothers shut the hell up. It's only a week...I can do it. Hopefully I can past though.

Oh yeah...if any of you see me online before May 4th...please remind me that I'm not suppose to be on. Cause, you know, at times i tend to "forget". Hehe. Thanks.

Well...it's time for me to fricken study.

That is all.

At times...I'm not myself. Seriously though...it's like I'm some other person or something.

I went out with Jr today...and well...I don't know, all of a sudden I felt all different and I was irratated. It caused a bit of an argument between us...which caused me to be sad and cry. At first, I was just quiet because my tooth hurt...I think I have a cavity...that sucks. Then...we'd stop talking for a while, then everything would be good, then everything would suck like hell. I don't know why I'm like this, it's what Jr and I call an "emotional rollar coaster"...I don't know why I act the way I do or what triggers it...it just happens.

I'm just scared that one day Jr will get sick and tired of it and then he'll leave me or something. That's why I can't sleep or go home until everything is okay. So everything needs to be good before I sleep at night. I'm just paranoid, I mean, Jr says that he wouldn't leave me because of my emotional rollar coaster but I mean, you can only take so much, ya know? Hopefully he means what he means. I really like this guy...and I'm trying to control it because I don't want to lose him.

I mean, I'm a good girlfriend...well, that's what Jr says...I don't know, he's probably just saying that because we're together...I don't know. But yeah...I'm a good girlfriend. The only problem is my emotions. I'm really sensitive...I cry when I see other people cry, I cry watching 7th heaven!...I don't know...I'm just really...REALLY emotional. I also get mad easily too...damn...I hate being this way...but, it's just who I am. It's something that I want to change though...and eventually it will go away if I keep trying, it'll just take time.

Anyways...that is all.

The "blue group" went to Sea World today...which sort of sucked because it was cloudy.

I'm sick...and it all happened on Wednesday when it rained. I mean...on Tuesday it was hella hot...so I figured that the weather for Wednesday would be the same...so I didn't bring a jacket, sweater, or even an umbrealla. Bad decision. It was really cold and it rained really hard. Maan...my head hurts and I have a cold. IT SUCKS!

Anyways...Sea World...I GOT TO TOUCH DOLPHINS, STAR FISHES, STING RAYS, and SEA SLUGS! haha...it was sooo cool. The dolphins were a bit diffult to touch though...they're pretty smart. They'll go to you, and you expect to pet them, but instead, they turn the other way. Maaan...they're pretty tricky. Fooled me like 3 times. We stayed at the dolphins place for a while because Bren really wanted to touch one...and when the trainers came out, she got to pet the dolphins like a grip of times. The star fishes felt like sand paper or something. Sting rays felt like...liver or something. Sea slugs...I saw myself touching it...but I couldn't feel anything. It was weird.

We also saw some manatees (sp?)...one of them had caca stuck in the butt...and it was like leaving bits of caca everywhere it went. It was funny.

It was sooo cold today...and I was planning to wear a halter top with slippers...lucky for me I changed my mind. Too bad I didn't bring a sweater though...but I borrowed my friend's sweater because he wasn't cold...he's a lifesaver! You know what else sucked about the weather? How it would be hot one minute and then cold the next. Or it would be all bright one minute and then all dark the next. Maan...I hate when that happens.

It was tiring day...when I came home...I took a 2 hour nap...naps are great. Especially if you're wearing your jammie's (right Eric? haha.)

Well yeah...my head hurts...I'm gonna sleep now. I need my rest since I probably won't be taking any medicine. I figured that my immune system should be strong...so I'm gonna try to beat the system of medicine. Haha. I'm just going to relax, drink fluids, and SLEEP!

Yep...and...that is all.

HAPPY 11TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY JR!

Well, it's actually on the 26th of this month...but I got bored so I decided to write it today

Like he'll actually read that. Heh...I haven't actually gave my site to my boyfriend yet...and I never gave him the site to my old diary page either...I don't know why. I mean, he knows that I have one...but he hasn't actually asked to see it. Ya know? I mean, I'll give him the site, it's not like I have anything to hide from him, because I don't...I just want him to ask for it. I mean, I tell Jr practically everything...I just want him to ask for the site, and I'll be happy to give it to him. Anyways...

Man...it's 11 months already? I'm not mad or sad about it or anything...just surprised that it actually lasted this long and surprised that it's been this long already, you know? Who would have thought that I'd be able to keep up another long relationship. How cool! I plan on keeping this a really long relationship. :)

It was really cute when we went out on Saturday to Family Fun Center...I mean...Boomers. He was doing an reenactment of the first day that we met. Hehe...it was sweet.

So yeah...it's 11 months now...and I'm still happy...things are just great for me and Jr...YEY! Hehe. Hopefully this will last. No more fights...no more arguments...(if only Jr would just agree that I'm always right...maaan! haha)...nothing but happiness. Heh...hopefully that will actually happen. Who knows?

I love you Jr! HAPPY 11TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY

And that is all.

Seniors are taking their cap and gown pictures this week...

I asked my dad which package he wanted me to get for the pictures and then he said, "Are you graduating in white?" Maaan...at that moment, my mind goes, "Aw man...here comes another lecture"...my lips said, "No" in a quiet voice with my head looking down. Throughout the whole lecture of "I thought that you were going to graduate in white, that's what you said..." and "It would have been nice to see you wearing a white gown..." etc...all my head could do was look down. I didn't want to see my dad's disappointed face. I hate it when he's disappointed in me.

I guess that's what I get though, for putting social life, t.v, laziness, and the worst of all...boys in front of my school life. I really wish I could do my entire high school life over. But no, it's not possible to go back in time. Damn it!

And look at me now, I'm praying that I pass the freakin' ELM and EPT...but see, I want to go to a JC first...and go through that whole "TAG" program thing and get into an UC school...because, I guess, to me, and I'm not saying that I'm better or whatever...in my opinion, SDSU is between JC and UC...with JC being the lowest and UC being the highest. I told my dad about that...and he just thinks that it's another way for me to take the easy way out...and I guess that's part of the reason why I want to go through the "TAG" program. ARGH! I hate this.

And get this...I'm getting more b.s from my brother...greeaat. The "smart" one. Freakin' A! I hate this...

I wish that I still had a chance to graduate in a white gown. :/

Damn lectures...damn white gowns, damn colleges...DAMN DAMN DAAAAMMM IT! This sucks!

I like the feeling of a small palmerian dog licking in between my toes. It tickles, yet it's quite....soothing. Hi, my name is Eric and you may recognize me from such hit films like, "I don't know what you did last summer," "Scary Mofo," and "Fast and the rice rockets." This 1 Kat was nice enough to let me blog my thoughts down on this here....uh, blog. What the heck is a blog anyway? I don't think I used the word 'blog' correctly in that sentence, but oh well. I feel like trying to be funny right now, but I'm also hungry and mad. Weird trio of emotions to be feeling simotanesouly. Kat may really love to eat ice cream (or is it just because it was free, and is gonna be free again at Baskin Robbins?), but I really love to eat Slurpees. Slurpees that are mixed. Like....red and blue, what is that, cherry and blue raspberry...oh yeah that's it. I don't really have a 'topc' for this post...but I would just like to give a big thumbs down to all the girls out there who sleep without panties. That's not cool. Sleep with only panties on. That's sexy. Okay enough of that XXX stuff. Oh yeah isn't there a movie with Vin Diesel called XXX? What is he, a porn star fighter or something? Weird...I need to see the preview for that one. Well enough of my gibberish, that is it. I mean, that is all. Heh.

Maan…yesterday was tiring.

I’m still trying to figure out how to use blog spot…I’m kinda getting use to it…sort of, not really…sometimes. Heh. So I didn’t get to sleep till 1 something on Saturday morning.

On that same Saturday, I woke up at 7 and got ready for Tiger Showcase. I called up Cat because she said that she wanted to go… “okay, I’ll wake up soon…” silly girl didn’t wake up till 9! Doofus. Haha. J/p.

After I called her up, I called up my boyfriend. Picked up boyfriend…went to school and checked out drill team perform. Maan…at times I wish I was there practicing, performing, and competing with them, but then, if I didn’t get out, I wouldn’t be able to really enjoy my senior year. I mean…yeah, I miss them…but things seem to suck now. Routines are good, but some of the people that are in it are waack. Man, drill team now looks like crap compared to the drill team from my 1st year…I don’t know dude. But, whatever. Gotta support them though ya know?

It got boring after all the performances so Jr and I went to his house and chilled over there. He was playing some snowboarding game…maan…guys and their games.

Like at 12, we went back to school to see performances…all male performed, I saw my movie star. Haha. Cat FINALLY came, but she missed most of the performances…*loser*. Haha. There were a lot more people at 12 than the ones at 8.

Dropped off Jr, went home, took a nap…then went out again w/Cat, Alexis, and Jr.

Jr was supposed to drive, but nooo…he made up some lame-o excuse, “my headlight is broken, you wanna see it?!” Whatever…lazy. Sorry Cat. It’s Jr’s fault.

We were supposed to watch Scorpion King…but it got sold out. Darn…oh well Jr, next time. We chilled at the mall for a while and Jr started chasing me around the food court…goodness, just because I took his drink and all. Haha. After that, we went to Boomers…aka Family Fun Center…I thought we were supposed to play miniature golf…and Cat and Alexis were supposed to beat Jr and I and take us down, down town! Haha. Oh well. We went on the Go-Karts. That was…alright. A year ago, at the Go-Kart line, was the first time that Jr held my hand, well, actually he massaged it because it was sleeping…wait, on that same day, that was when I first met Jr. Maaan…memories. He only massaged it so he can touch my hand…ooo…smooth. Haha.

Anyways…I had fun.

So, I changed my site because some irritating bastard kept on bugging...but eh...whatever

Plus, I wanted to try a different server. Everyone is talking about blogspot and I guess I wanted to see what all the fuss was about. So yeah...just trying a new thing.

Anyways, that's all for now. Laters.