Great Weekend...
Spent a lot of time with Jr. *sigh* It was really fun hanging out with him this weekend...the best part was that we didn't even fight...at all.
Went to SDSU's orientation thingy on Friday...that was boring like hell. I hate the counselor that I had...he always gives bad information. Then we watched Scooby Doo...it's was alright. I still think that Lilo & Stitch is the best movie I've seen so far this year. Today, we went to Roanne's 18th birthday and graduation party, somewhere in Eastlake because well...she graduated from Eastlake. That was cool...good food too. I was a candle...I had no idea what to say. *Sorry Roanne* Maaan...Jr and I felt all out of place because well, people were wearing casual clothes and Jr and I came in with jeans. It's all because of Roanne's brother...Tony, he told me to wear anything, just as long as I felt comfortable...but when we go there, everyone is dressed all nice and crap. Eh...whatever. I didn't expect to see any Morse heads though...but there was a lot...way more than I expected.
Haha...guess what? My goody too shoes brothers got in trouble. My Kuya Mike (the 2nd eldest) got in trouble for having his tail lights broken, so he got a warning...but my Kuya Sonny (the eldest) got in trouble for not wearing a seat belt in the passenger seat, so he has to pay a fine. Haha...waka,waka, waka.
Kuya Sonny is leaving to the P.I on the 3rd of July...
I wonder if I can go to 6 flags this summer...hmmm...that means I gotta be really good. Damn it! That's gonna be hard. Eh...we'll see. Hope I can go though.
Anyways...getting sleepy...so I must end this.
The end...
That is all.
Sunday, June 30, 2002
Tuesday, June 25, 2002
why is that, every time u feel alone, no one ever comes around to talk? and why is that when u have everything, they wont leave u alone?
why do you keep wishing that u had someone else's life, when someone out there is wishing they could have yours?
why is that, you'd do anything for something you want to have, and not care about it when you have it
you know you're doing something wrong, but can't help it since its the way of life?
the after math of doing something wrong is REALIZATION
why is that you can always give someone else advice but come out empty handed on your own?
just because you've been through similar situations, does that make you an expert?
your chasing him, he's chasing after your friend, damn, what’s up with all these damn chasing games, just get it on with a 3-some!
a real heart to heart talk with someone is when you just sit there and say nothing
why do u always feel better after crying? It’s just a way of showing your weakness~
my life is like this song, "i remember the song...i remember the boy, but i don’t remember the feelings anymore..."
when u make a sad song your own, just remember, it was someone else's sad songi
care for her, she cares for me, we'd do anything for each other...but if i could only tell her i love her..
DEDICATED TO MY MOM you don’t have to be with someone to be happy, just the thought of doing it all is enough for me
depending on someone is sometimes okay, revolving your world around someone is just pathetic
i love my parents, i love my friends, but i can never have the same love for a guy
we’re all stuck with this idea that there is true love, but its nothing more than a fantasy, a life long dream
you always think the next person you fall in love with is the one for you, then you go onto the next...
sad stories, bad experiences, the moment of truth, is that your way of pickin up people?
a true friend? what does it mean? it has a lot of definitions, a lot of expectations, they could tell the truth, spend all your time with them, make memories, share the same experiences, claim to never do you wrong, they can hide things from you, they even talk about you behind your back...not to mention sleep with your boyfriend, to me, there’s no such thing as true friends, cuz they'll fuck you over somehow in the end...
trust is my imaginary friend
its killing you inside, you want to scream out for help, you wish someone would understand, but you put up a front everything is okay...so how do you feel now?
its the right time, the right place...maybe even the right guy for the time being...i have the urge to say it, but i often find myself holding it in, looking into his eyes, and letting the moment pass by. my philosophy is, you'll get over it in the morning.
my best sexual experiences with a guy: THE FIRST AND LAST TIME
you get butterflies in your stomach, you cant think straight, you see the guy you like, you start sweating, you cant keep still, feels like your going to explode, and here i am in the corner thinking, don’t worry, its just diarrhea
when i see little children, i actually feel sorry for them, if they only knew what it would be like growing up
i miss you, were apart, if i had the power to do so, i'd freeze all the good times and put it in the bottle and send it to you
i know you have someone else, but i want you, we had a good time together, i really miss you
the worst part is...if u only knew
now i leave you with a thought...
I’m strong, I’m dedicated, I’m level headed, i make a lot of sense, i can make you cry, i can make you laugh, i hide behind a mask
all of this was written by me, i had alot of inspiration, so i didnt need to "copy this from anyone else" i just had to put my emotions down, cuz if not, they'd be flying all over the place
=006=
Well, yeah, this was written by my friend that lives in Hawaii, ya know, the place that I was supposed to go to this summer but didn't cause of my dad. I had this entry before, in my diaryland one...I don't know, just wanted to post it again, I guess. I really like what she wrote that's why. So yeah...
That's is all.
why do you keep wishing that u had someone else's life, when someone out there is wishing they could have yours?
why is that, you'd do anything for something you want to have, and not care about it when you have it
you know you're doing something wrong, but can't help it since its the way of life?
the after math of doing something wrong is REALIZATION
why is that you can always give someone else advice but come out empty handed on your own?
just because you've been through similar situations, does that make you an expert?
your chasing him, he's chasing after your friend, damn, what’s up with all these damn chasing games, just get it on with a 3-some!
a real heart to heart talk with someone is when you just sit there and say nothing
why do u always feel better after crying? It’s just a way of showing your weakness~
my life is like this song, "i remember the song...i remember the boy, but i don’t remember the feelings anymore..."
when u make a sad song your own, just remember, it was someone else's sad songi
care for her, she cares for me, we'd do anything for each other...but if i could only tell her i love her..
DEDICATED TO MY MOM you don’t have to be with someone to be happy, just the thought of doing it all is enough for me
depending on someone is sometimes okay, revolving your world around someone is just pathetic
i love my parents, i love my friends, but i can never have the same love for a guy
we’re all stuck with this idea that there is true love, but its nothing more than a fantasy, a life long dream
you always think the next person you fall in love with is the one for you, then you go onto the next...
sad stories, bad experiences, the moment of truth, is that your way of pickin up people?
a true friend? what does it mean? it has a lot of definitions, a lot of expectations, they could tell the truth, spend all your time with them, make memories, share the same experiences, claim to never do you wrong, they can hide things from you, they even talk about you behind your back...not to mention sleep with your boyfriend, to me, there’s no such thing as true friends, cuz they'll fuck you over somehow in the end...
trust is my imaginary friend
its killing you inside, you want to scream out for help, you wish someone would understand, but you put up a front everything is okay...so how do you feel now?
its the right time, the right place...maybe even the right guy for the time being...i have the urge to say it, but i often find myself holding it in, looking into his eyes, and letting the moment pass by. my philosophy is, you'll get over it in the morning.
my best sexual experiences with a guy: THE FIRST AND LAST TIME
you get butterflies in your stomach, you cant think straight, you see the guy you like, you start sweating, you cant keep still, feels like your going to explode, and here i am in the corner thinking, don’t worry, its just diarrhea
when i see little children, i actually feel sorry for them, if they only knew what it would be like growing up
i miss you, were apart, if i had the power to do so, i'd freeze all the good times and put it in the bottle and send it to you
i know you have someone else, but i want you, we had a good time together, i really miss you
the worst part is...if u only knew
now i leave you with a thought...
I’m strong, I’m dedicated, I’m level headed, i make a lot of sense, i can make you cry, i can make you laugh, i hide behind a mask
all of this was written by me, i had alot of inspiration, so i didnt need to "copy this from anyone else" i just had to put my emotions down, cuz if not, they'd be flying all over the place
=006=
Well, yeah, this was written by my friend that lives in Hawaii, ya know, the place that I was supposed to go to this summer but didn't cause of my dad. I had this entry before, in my diaryland one...I don't know, just wanted to post it again, I guess. I really like what she wrote that's why. So yeah...
That's is all.
Friday, June 21, 2002
*Sigh* I don’t understand parents sometimes…crap, I don’t understand parents at all. And sometime in the future, I’ll be a parent that my child wouldn’t understand. But I won’t complicated like my dad.
Well, what’s going on in this 1 kat’s house? Let’s see, my dad said that it’s MY fault for HIM getting mad at ME during MY graduation. Yep, apparently, I shouldn’t have upset him during my graduation so that HE could have enjoyed it. Wtf?! Eh…WHATEVER. He also thinks that I’m not ready for college because I didn’t graduate in white and he thinks that I’m going to fail in college…so he thinks that there’s no point in letting me go to college to “fail and waste his money” So what does he plan to do? He said that I should just stay home and help cook and clean around the house. Uh…yeah, sure. And that’s suppose to benefit my future, how? I HAVE NO EFFIN’ CLUE!
I went to an orientation yesterday, I signed up for summer school hoping that my dad would be happy that I’m being “productive” during the summer. You know, getting an education and stuff. But ya know what? He thinks that I’m going to fail summer school and that I shouldn’t go because “college is different. And that you have to pay, and that I might fail and waste his money” So yeah, he might make me take a year off from my education to “teach me a lesson”…gosh, isn’t my dad just the smartest guy ever? NOT! Yeah, he wants me to graduate, yet, he’s making me postpone school. Hmm…confused yet? Cause damn, he confused the living shit out of me. Yeah, last night I was getting lectured for about an hour and a half about school and about how he thinks I’m going to fail. He kept on repeating the same thing over, and over, and over.
Oh yeah, he also thinks that I shouldn’t get a car because he thinks that I might not ever be home, which is probably true…why would I want to stay here if all I do is get lectured? I mean…I thought that I was being good…but nope. It’s like he makes something up so that I can get in trouble or something.
Has anyone seen 7th Heaven? Well, I felt like Mary. There was an episode where everyone was saying stuff about Mary and talking about how they really feel about how she’s been acting and crap like that. And well, Mary wasn’t crying or anything. Well in a way, that’s what happened to me. My 2 older brothers, the ones who act like my dad was saying stuff to me, my step-mom…well, she never says crap, my little brother was watching T.V, and well…my grandma just kept on going, “just study, do better…” crap like that. I didn’t cry…I mean, I’ve heard their lectures over and over and frankly, I’m getting sick and tired of it.
This was all because I didn’t graduate in white, and I got B’s instead of A’s…yep. That’s basically it. In my family, I’m what THEY call, “the rebel of the family”. Argh…I’m getting tired of this. At first, I thought about moving out when I’m stable…but ya know what? When October comes, I wanna leave sooooo bad and get away from these people. But frick, MAYBE, just MAYBE things will be a little, JUST a little better. I really wanna leave when I’m stable, but if it continues to be this way…then maybe I might be leaving sooner than I planned. When I think about the future, I see me living far away from my family and seeing them on certain occasions. Or, I just might be the sister/daughter that they haven’t seen for like 10 years or something.
I don’t know why they’re still lecturing me…uh, hello, school is over. *sigh* WHATEVER
And...that is all
Well, what’s going on in this 1 kat’s house? Let’s see, my dad said that it’s MY fault for HIM getting mad at ME during MY graduation. Yep, apparently, I shouldn’t have upset him during my graduation so that HE could have enjoyed it. Wtf?! Eh…WHATEVER. He also thinks that I’m not ready for college because I didn’t graduate in white and he thinks that I’m going to fail in college…so he thinks that there’s no point in letting me go to college to “fail and waste his money” So what does he plan to do? He said that I should just stay home and help cook and clean around the house. Uh…yeah, sure. And that’s suppose to benefit my future, how? I HAVE NO EFFIN’ CLUE!
I went to an orientation yesterday, I signed up for summer school hoping that my dad would be happy that I’m being “productive” during the summer. You know, getting an education and stuff. But ya know what? He thinks that I’m going to fail summer school and that I shouldn’t go because “college is different. And that you have to pay, and that I might fail and waste his money” So yeah, he might make me take a year off from my education to “teach me a lesson”…gosh, isn’t my dad just the smartest guy ever? NOT! Yeah, he wants me to graduate, yet, he’s making me postpone school. Hmm…confused yet? Cause damn, he confused the living shit out of me. Yeah, last night I was getting lectured for about an hour and a half about school and about how he thinks I’m going to fail. He kept on repeating the same thing over, and over, and over.
Oh yeah, he also thinks that I shouldn’t get a car because he thinks that I might not ever be home, which is probably true…why would I want to stay here if all I do is get lectured? I mean…I thought that I was being good…but nope. It’s like he makes something up so that I can get in trouble or something.
Has anyone seen 7th Heaven? Well, I felt like Mary. There was an episode where everyone was saying stuff about Mary and talking about how they really feel about how she’s been acting and crap like that. And well, Mary wasn’t crying or anything. Well in a way, that’s what happened to me. My 2 older brothers, the ones who act like my dad was saying stuff to me, my step-mom…well, she never says crap, my little brother was watching T.V, and well…my grandma just kept on going, “just study, do better…” crap like that. I didn’t cry…I mean, I’ve heard their lectures over and over and frankly, I’m getting sick and tired of it.
This was all because I didn’t graduate in white, and I got B’s instead of A’s…yep. That’s basically it. In my family, I’m what THEY call, “the rebel of the family”. Argh…I’m getting tired of this. At first, I thought about moving out when I’m stable…but ya know what? When October comes, I wanna leave sooooo bad and get away from these people. But frick, MAYBE, just MAYBE things will be a little, JUST a little better. I really wanna leave when I’m stable, but if it continues to be this way…then maybe I might be leaving sooner than I planned. When I think about the future, I see me living far away from my family and seeing them on certain occasions. Or, I just might be the sister/daughter that they haven’t seen for like 10 years or something.
I don’t know why they’re still lecturing me…uh, hello, school is over. *sigh* WHATEVER
And...that is all
Monday, June 17, 2002
I thought that nothing could really ruin graduation day...maaan...was I wrong. Wanna know who ruined graduation for me? My father. Yep...he ruined it for me. Got into a fight with him before I left the house for graduation, he yelled at me and everything...then, on the way to graduation...my sorry ass was crying because I was so mad.
Yep, the person who usually drops me off and picks me up during my senior year (Cat) dropped me off to graduation too. (Message to Cat, don't know if you'll read this, but I'll post it anyways, no need to apologize for your mom, I guess it's understandable. Sorry for making you bring me to graduation, like you haven't done enough for me already...I'm really sorry and thanks...for everything. Tell your family I said sorry too. I'll probably say it for myself, but not right now...I'm just a little scared...I'll tell you the rest, apologize more, and say thank you more the next time I talk to you)
In the morning, I went to school to see if I could get a tassel, but I couldn't because they ran out. So, I borrowed Kim's...THANKS by the way. I called up the school and they said that they had more, but I had to pay $5 for it...damn, like it wasn't bad enough for paying $20 in the first place, I gotta pay $5 for something that the stupid company or the school did. So I told Kim, but she was kind enough to say that I can just keep hers (because she had 2). So yeah, I wanted to get something to wear underneath the gown so I went out real quick, I took longer than I expected and so, when I got home, my dad got mad at me, Cat arrived at the house like a minute when I got there, I asked my dad if he could just drive to graduation because Cat's family was already late...but noooo...he yelled, "NO, JUST RIDE WITH THEM! wtf?! What a dad huh? Maaan...I was so mad...then Cat's mom said something, don't want to write what she said, but that got me even more mad (sorry Cat...no offense, and I'm really sorry for everything. I'm not mad at your mom or anything because it's understandable, I was just mad at the fact that what she said was true...and you know, truth hurts.) So yeah, I went with them, got ready within 2-5 minutes I didn't even get to comb my hair and then we went to Cat's family's house, with me in the car crying...I felt disrespectful for not going down, but I couldn't...I was crying. Then everyone at graduation knew that I was crying and I was sad because well...I guess it's noticeable so yeah, people asked, and you know, whenever people ask what's wrong my ass starts crying more...wtf?! Maan...being emotional and sensitive really sucks! I wanna be strong and stop being a cry baby...but nooo...I can't, because that's just how I am.
Graduation wasn't all that great, I guess it would have been greater if I wasn't mad when I got there. Graduation was also boring...but I guess...not much to it. The one person that I really wanted to go to graduation wasn't there...*sadness* but it's okay though, I mean, it's understandable, he had work and he couldn't get a day off or anything because he just started. But as always, he's always with me in spirit...haha. LOVE YOU JR!
But yeah, seriously though, I don't know if I could really forgive my dad for making angry on the day of my graduation. I mean, you'd think that he'd try to make everything go good for me because well, he's my dad. But nope, he was the cause of it.
So, my motivation for college: DO GOOD = GETTING OUT OF THE HOUSE. Yep, I'm so serious. I really want to do good in school so I can get out of this house with the strict people in it. I wanna go far...REALLY FAR. But I might settle for UCSD, not sure. Yeah, I know, that's not far. I want to go to UCLA or UC BERKLEY, or UC DAVIS...but I don't know if I can handle it...who knows. Who knows what I can do if I try. I got my motivation...DO GOOD = GETTING OUT OF THE HOUSE
Man, I better have a fuckin' good summer...this is the first summer since I've been in San Diego that I'm not going to school, so it better be a good summer damn it.
Oh yeah, by the way, CONGRATULATIONS to the CLASS OF 2002!
That is all.
Yep, the person who usually drops me off and picks me up during my senior year (Cat) dropped me off to graduation too. (Message to Cat, don't know if you'll read this, but I'll post it anyways, no need to apologize for your mom, I guess it's understandable. Sorry for making you bring me to graduation, like you haven't done enough for me already...I'm really sorry and thanks...for everything. Tell your family I said sorry too. I'll probably say it for myself, but not right now...I'm just a little scared...I'll tell you the rest, apologize more, and say thank you more the next time I talk to you)
In the morning, I went to school to see if I could get a tassel, but I couldn't because they ran out. So, I borrowed Kim's...THANKS by the way. I called up the school and they said that they had more, but I had to pay $5 for it...damn, like it wasn't bad enough for paying $20 in the first place, I gotta pay $5 for something that the stupid company or the school did. So I told Kim, but she was kind enough to say that I can just keep hers (because she had 2). So yeah, I wanted to get something to wear underneath the gown so I went out real quick, I took longer than I expected and so, when I got home, my dad got mad at me, Cat arrived at the house like a minute when I got there, I asked my dad if he could just drive to graduation because Cat's family was already late...but noooo...he yelled, "NO, JUST RIDE WITH THEM! wtf?! What a dad huh? Maaan...I was so mad...then Cat's mom said something, don't want to write what she said, but that got me even more mad (sorry Cat...no offense, and I'm really sorry for everything. I'm not mad at your mom or anything because it's understandable, I was just mad at the fact that what she said was true...and you know, truth hurts.) So yeah, I went with them, got ready within 2-5 minutes I didn't even get to comb my hair and then we went to Cat's family's house, with me in the car crying...I felt disrespectful for not going down, but I couldn't...I was crying. Then everyone at graduation knew that I was crying and I was sad because well...I guess it's noticeable so yeah, people asked, and you know, whenever people ask what's wrong my ass starts crying more...wtf?! Maan...being emotional and sensitive really sucks! I wanna be strong and stop being a cry baby...but nooo...I can't, because that's just how I am.
Graduation wasn't all that great, I guess it would have been greater if I wasn't mad when I got there. Graduation was also boring...but I guess...not much to it. The one person that I really wanted to go to graduation wasn't there...*sadness* but it's okay though, I mean, it's understandable, he had work and he couldn't get a day off or anything because he just started. But as always, he's always with me in spirit...haha. LOVE YOU JR!
But yeah, seriously though, I don't know if I could really forgive my dad for making angry on the day of my graduation. I mean, you'd think that he'd try to make everything go good for me because well, he's my dad. But nope, he was the cause of it.
So, my motivation for college: DO GOOD = GETTING OUT OF THE HOUSE. Yep, I'm so serious. I really want to do good in school so I can get out of this house with the strict people in it. I wanna go far...REALLY FAR. But I might settle for UCSD, not sure. Yeah, I know, that's not far. I want to go to UCLA or UC BERKLEY, or UC DAVIS...but I don't know if I can handle it...who knows. Who knows what I can do if I try. I got my motivation...DO GOOD = GETTING OUT OF THE HOUSE
Man, I better have a fuckin' good summer...this is the first summer since I've been in San Diego that I'm not going to school, so it better be a good summer damn it.
Oh yeah, by the way, CONGRATULATIONS to the CLASS OF 2002!
That is all.
Sunday, June 16, 2002
To: You
For some odd reason, I feel sad…I guess one of the reasons is because the year is ending and my high school life is officially over, and the other reason why I feel sad is because…I’m confused. “You’re acting weird” is something you’d say. I don’t know why I act the way I the way I do. I mean, I’m moody a lot more than I usually am. See, this usually happens when I feel really bored. I need something to entertain me, to prevent me from being bored and from being moody. At times, I think that the reason why I’m bored is because well, the relationship isn’t as interesting as it used to be. I guess it’s because the relationship moved too fast…and you know what the saying is, “When a relationship starts fast, it ends fast”. I don’t know what I want, but I do know that I DON’T want another break up. I can’t see myself with anyone else right now, as of right now, I can only see myself with you. I don’t know what’s going on with me…I guess I AM acting weird
I just want to say that I’m sorry, I really am sorry for putting you through this. For having you deal with my emotions and going through an emotional roller coaster. I just hope that you can deal with this and I hope that this is just a phase, cause I love you, and you know that. You should also know that I don’t want to be with anyone else right now BUT you. Just bare with me, and once again, I’m really am sorry.
I would also like to say Thank You, thank you for staying with me. I know I put you through a lot and you’ve always stayed with me. I have no idea how you’re able to put up with me…but thanks. Thanks for being so patient with me.
I love you
From: Me
p.s. That is all.
For some odd reason, I feel sad…I guess one of the reasons is because the year is ending and my high school life is officially over, and the other reason why I feel sad is because…I’m confused. “You’re acting weird” is something you’d say. I don’t know why I act the way I the way I do. I mean, I’m moody a lot more than I usually am. See, this usually happens when I feel really bored. I need something to entertain me, to prevent me from being bored and from being moody. At times, I think that the reason why I’m bored is because well, the relationship isn’t as interesting as it used to be. I guess it’s because the relationship moved too fast…and you know what the saying is, “When a relationship starts fast, it ends fast”. I don’t know what I want, but I do know that I DON’T want another break up. I can’t see myself with anyone else right now, as of right now, I can only see myself with you. I don’t know what’s going on with me…I guess I AM acting weird
I just want to say that I’m sorry, I really am sorry for putting you through this. For having you deal with my emotions and going through an emotional roller coaster. I just hope that you can deal with this and I hope that this is just a phase, cause I love you, and you know that. You should also know that I don’t want to be with anyone else right now BUT you. Just bare with me, and once again, I’m really am sorry.
I would also like to say Thank You, thank you for staying with me. I know I put you through a lot and you’ve always stayed with me. I have no idea how you’re able to put up with me…but thanks. Thanks for being so patient with me.
I love you
From: Me
p.s. That is all.
Friday, June 14, 2002
Luncheon...our last activity as a seniors before graduation...maan...well, luckily this time, I didn't cry...but I know for sure I'll cry during graduation. I'm gonna be sooo sad.
Food wasn't all that great, everyone was shiesty with the churos...it was gone within 2-5 minutes.
Boat ride made me dizzy...well, only when I'd look at the water while we were moving...that made me really dizzy.
There was like this stained glass thingy on the ceiling, and well, when you talk up to it, someone like from across the room can hear you, as if they were right next to you...I don't know how to explain it. It was just sooooo cool.
Yeah...not much to talk about the senior luncheon cause well...it was boring. Another thing that was boring was that damn graduation rehersal...*zzzz* B-O-R-I-N-G!
Okay, I have a test to do tomorrow so.....for now...that is all.
Food wasn't all that great, everyone was shiesty with the churos...it was gone within 2-5 minutes.
Boat ride made me dizzy...well, only when I'd look at the water while we were moving...that made me really dizzy.
There was like this stained glass thingy on the ceiling, and well, when you talk up to it, someone like from across the room can hear you, as if they were right next to you...I don't know how to explain it. It was just sooooo cool.
Yeah...not much to talk about the senior luncheon cause well...it was boring. Another thing that was boring was that damn graduation rehersal...*zzzz* B-O-R-I-N-G!
Okay, I have a test to do tomorrow so.....for now...that is all.
Thursday, June 13, 2002
Damn it...SLEEP ALREADY!
Seriously though, throughout grad nite all I wanted to do was sleep...and on the bus ride home...all I did was sleep...and while they were talking whatever they were talking about in the gym, all I wanted to do was sleep...and now that I'm home...I CAN'T SLEEP! Maaan...I'm soooo tired...but my body doesn't want to sleep right now. That sucks...for me.
Grad nite was sooooo much fun. Even though we (Kat D., Bren, Cat E., Jenilee, Becky, and me) didn't get to hang out with the guys we still had fun. We all agreed that it'd be a lot of fun if we got to bring our boyfriends...but we couldn't. Yep, we all had boyfriends, but none of them goes to our school...so that sucked. Me and Cat thought that it'd be hella cool if we could just snap our fingers, and then there'd be our boyfriends. Haha.
Well yeah, as usual, the lines were biatches...but it's okay, some of them went by really fast and the others stank like crap! Seriously though, we'd be in line and we'd think that someone farted or something...it was gross. Luckily for me, I couldn't really smell anything because I had a cold. Haha.
Grad Nite had some gay dancers though...like in the beginning, when they're about to open up the park, there's like a staging area (I guess that's what you can call it) and there were these dancers...maaan...they sucked! It also kinda sucked when the theme park was mostly playing trance and rave music...there were a grip of posers too. It was comedy!
Anyways...it was just fun...I wanna do that again! Haha.
*sigh* The year is ending...but I don't want it to, not yet...I'm not ready...it's still too early! But...crap...I guess, we all gotta grow up sometime right? RIGHT!
Well anyways...I'm finally getting sleepy, sooo...blog next time...when there's something to blog about. :P
That is all.
Seriously though, throughout grad nite all I wanted to do was sleep...and on the bus ride home...all I did was sleep...and while they were talking whatever they were talking about in the gym, all I wanted to do was sleep...and now that I'm home...I CAN'T SLEEP! Maaan...I'm soooo tired...but my body doesn't want to sleep right now. That sucks...for me.
Grad nite was sooooo much fun. Even though we (Kat D., Bren, Cat E., Jenilee, Becky, and me) didn't get to hang out with the guys we still had fun. We all agreed that it'd be a lot of fun if we got to bring our boyfriends...but we couldn't. Yep, we all had boyfriends, but none of them goes to our school...so that sucked. Me and Cat thought that it'd be hella cool if we could just snap our fingers, and then there'd be our boyfriends. Haha.
Well yeah, as usual, the lines were biatches...but it's okay, some of them went by really fast and the others stank like crap! Seriously though, we'd be in line and we'd think that someone farted or something...it was gross. Luckily for me, I couldn't really smell anything because I had a cold. Haha.
Grad Nite had some gay dancers though...like in the beginning, when they're about to open up the park, there's like a staging area (I guess that's what you can call it) and there were these dancers...maaan...they sucked! It also kinda sucked when the theme park was mostly playing trance and rave music...there were a grip of posers too. It was comedy!
Anyways...it was just fun...I wanna do that again! Haha.
*sigh* The year is ending...but I don't want it to, not yet...I'm not ready...it's still too early! But...crap...I guess, we all gotta grow up sometime right? RIGHT!
Well anyways...I'm finally getting sleepy, sooo...blog next time...when there's something to blog about. :P
That is all.
Tuesday, June 11, 2002
Man...darn Maricel...made me cry...SHE STARTED IT ALL!
I guess, that's the problem with Libras...such cry babies. I cried during 3rd period when I saw Gogo...that was the weirdest thing. I'll talk about that later. Then I cried during 4th because Maricel...and then other people cried...but not Ruth...I wonder why...darn Ruth...cold hearted...haha...just kidding. And then I started crying during lunch because I haven't seen one of my friends in a long time...and then I cried after school because my friend is going out with a jerk and I don't know...I don't know why I cried...I just did. Maaan...I'm such a cry baby. I hate being this way.
Okay...why did I cry when I saw Gogo? I have no idea! Okay...the story with Gogo...he was supposedly my bestfriend from my freshman year...and at that time I was going out with......yeah...someone. So...when me and that someone broke-up...Gogo told me that he had liked me since 9th grade...and well...I guess for a short while we were talking, but see...I was still on the rebound and I sort of had feelings for my ex still...so I turned him down. And...well, things were weird between us. And one day, I heard that he was moving to Hawaii...and he didn't really say bye to me...and so...I was sad. Occasionally, I'd think about him...I really missed him. And well...today, I was walking to 3rd period and then I saw him...I saw Gogo. When we were walking towards each other, my heart started pounding...and I have no idea why. We were smiling and all that other stuff...then he said, "Wow, you're still pretty" (I do bad with compliments...don't know how to take them...) and then I don't know...I had to go to class...but I wanted to talk to him more. So I asked him to go to my 4th period so we can talk a bit...but he didn't. It's okay though...I think I'll see him again...I hope I'll see him again...I really missed him that's why. I miss him being there for me. I miss talking to him.
*sigh* I don't think it means anything...with my heart pounding and the tears of joy when I saw him...he's just a really good friend.
And well...Jr and I talked yesterday...see, in the beginning of the relationship, we both agreed that it wouldn't be a serious one, well, he said that he didn't want one, and I said it too...but I only said it because he said it. I mean, wouldn't it be weird if one person wanted a serious relationship but the other one didn't? So I just agreed with him. Well anyways, whenever he tried to get closer...what he told me...about him not wanting a serious relationship, played in my mind...so I was pushed him away. So...we both decided that this is a serious relationship I guess. I don't know dude...I just know that I love the guy.
Recap: I may hate Morse but the year ended to quick...I'm going to miss all my friends, because well, high school kept us all together, and people are going to different colleges and all...so yeah, I'm just gonna miss them all. I hate being a cry baby...I'm too damn sensitive! I really missed Gogo and hopefully we can kick it or something. Jr and I are officially in a serious relationship...I love him. And yeah...don't know what else to say...so.....
That is all.
I guess, that's the problem with Libras...such cry babies. I cried during 3rd period when I saw Gogo...that was the weirdest thing. I'll talk about that later. Then I cried during 4th because Maricel...and then other people cried...but not Ruth...I wonder why...darn Ruth...cold hearted...haha...just kidding. And then I started crying during lunch because I haven't seen one of my friends in a long time...and then I cried after school because my friend is going out with a jerk and I don't know...I don't know why I cried...I just did. Maaan...I'm such a cry baby. I hate being this way.
Okay...why did I cry when I saw Gogo? I have no idea! Okay...the story with Gogo...he was supposedly my bestfriend from my freshman year...and at that time I was going out with......yeah...someone. So...when me and that someone broke-up...Gogo told me that he had liked me since 9th grade...and well...I guess for a short while we were talking, but see...I was still on the rebound and I sort of had feelings for my ex still...so I turned him down. And...well, things were weird between us. And one day, I heard that he was moving to Hawaii...and he didn't really say bye to me...and so...I was sad. Occasionally, I'd think about him...I really missed him. And well...today, I was walking to 3rd period and then I saw him...I saw Gogo. When we were walking towards each other, my heart started pounding...and I have no idea why. We were smiling and all that other stuff...then he said, "Wow, you're still pretty" (I do bad with compliments...don't know how to take them...) and then I don't know...I had to go to class...but I wanted to talk to him more. So I asked him to go to my 4th period so we can talk a bit...but he didn't. It's okay though...I think I'll see him again...I hope I'll see him again...I really missed him that's why. I miss him being there for me. I miss talking to him.
*sigh* I don't think it means anything...with my heart pounding and the tears of joy when I saw him...he's just a really good friend.
And well...Jr and I talked yesterday...see, in the beginning of the relationship, we both agreed that it wouldn't be a serious one, well, he said that he didn't want one, and I said it too...but I only said it because he said it. I mean, wouldn't it be weird if one person wanted a serious relationship but the other one didn't? So I just agreed with him. Well anyways, whenever he tried to get closer...what he told me...about him not wanting a serious relationship, played in my mind...so I was pushed him away. So...we both decided that this is a serious relationship I guess. I don't know dude...I just know that I love the guy.
Recap: I may hate Morse but the year ended to quick...I'm going to miss all my friends, because well, high school kept us all together, and people are going to different colleges and all...so yeah, I'm just gonna miss them all. I hate being a cry baby...I'm too damn sensitive! I really missed Gogo and hopefully we can kick it or something. Jr and I are officially in a serious relationship...I love him. And yeah...don't know what else to say...so.....
That is all.
Sunday, June 09, 2002
MISSION: Take the fish
OBJECTIVE: Bring the fish home and have a pet
Haha…that’s what me and Jr kept on talking about during Michelle’s debut. That was a fun night. Yes, that was our mission and objective for the night…and I was humming the Mission Impossible theme…and saying, “it’s not mission difficult, it’s mission impossible.” Haha.
Maaan…that was a fun night…came home late and parents didn’t really say anything, that was the cool part. I haven’t had that much fun in a while…too much crap going on.
And oh yeah…Jr tried to get me deaf…he kept on clocking in my hear and he does that pretty loud…and he got my hair all messed up…THAAAANKS!
But yeah, we got the fish, Jr has it though, I didn’t really want to buy the things for it…so yep, he got the food, and the water for it. So, hopefully it’ll stay alive. It’s our first pet…it better stay alive.
So yeah…that was the highlight of my weekend…sorry that I haven’t blogged in a while…but right now I gotta clean the house, it’s a fricken mess in here!
That is all.
OBJECTIVE: Bring the fish home and have a pet
Haha…that’s what me and Jr kept on talking about during Michelle’s debut. That was a fun night. Yes, that was our mission and objective for the night…and I was humming the Mission Impossible theme…and saying, “it’s not mission difficult, it’s mission impossible.” Haha.
Maaan…that was a fun night…came home late and parents didn’t really say anything, that was the cool part. I haven’t had that much fun in a while…too much crap going on.
And oh yeah…Jr tried to get me deaf…he kept on clocking in my hear and he does that pretty loud…and he got my hair all messed up…THAAAANKS!
But yeah, we got the fish, Jr has it though, I didn’t really want to buy the things for it…so yep, he got the food, and the water for it. So, hopefully it’ll stay alive. It’s our first pet…it better stay alive.
So yeah…that was the highlight of my weekend…sorry that I haven’t blogged in a while…but right now I gotta clean the house, it’s a fricken mess in here!
That is all.
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