I was sitting in my brother’s car, waiting for him and my little brother in front of Video R Us. I wondered what was in my brother’s cd player, so I decided to listen to it. I was looking for a song that I knew and the one that came up was God Must Have Spent A Little More Time On You. That song just brought me down memory lane. Starting from the beginning with all the laughs, happiness, and love till the end with all the tears, drama, and hatred. I remember the question that I was asked earlier today, it was from Vanessa,(Note: Vanessa is the italics and I’m the regular lettering) “Do you think that you’d kill yourself if you and Jr weren’t friends?”. “Uh...no I wouldn’t kill myself if Jr and I weren’t friends.” “No, I mean, would you be really sad if you guys weren’t friends?” “Of course I’ll be sad. I mean, I’m still sad that Ben and I aren’t friends. I’m not saying that I’m going to be sad all the time. I have moved on…it’s just that, every once in a while, when I’m staring off into space or in my ‘thinking’ mode I feel sad that he and I aren’t AT LEAST cool with each other. Hopefully that won’t happen with Jr though cause then I’ll be really sad, especially since we promised that we’d stay friends. And Jr knows that I hate it when he breaks promises. And if he did…then I’m gonna kick his ass!” Heh. Seriously though, so far, with all my ex’s, I’m friends or at least cool with all of them. I don’t know, I guess I just need closure or something.

Don’t get me wrong, I mean, I’m not saying that I’m still IN love with Ben, there would always be that little part of me that would always care for him, just like Jr…if anything bad would happen between us *knock on wood*, there would always be a part of me that would always care and love him. We have to stay friends…if we’re both not married or engaged by the time I’m 30, then we’re getting married. YOU PROMISED JR!!! Heh. (Note to Jon…I’m not getting married at 24…)

Yeah, I know that I’ve said some pretty mean things about Ben…I guess that was just my bitter side. For all I know, that side might still be a part of me. I don't know, it comes out when it feels like. Seriously…and I’m not bull shitting on this either. I’m happy that he’s doing good. I’ve heard some things about him, but I guess they were all lies according to his girlfriend…you know, rumors aren’t always true. Honestly though, I’m happy for them. I’m glad that things are going well for him and her.

Things between he and I are in the past, I know that, but sometimes I feel that I should pretend that whatever happened between us never happened at all. I don’t know. I doubt that will happen…but sometimes I just feel that it’s the right thing to do.

Anyways...this is off the subject but...Jr, sometimes I get confused when you use Jerome. In my guestbook, "Jerome" is sayinig, "I love you and I miss you" And I'm like who the hell is this? And then I remember that it's you. Can't you just put Jr? My goodness. Gotta be all complicated. Heh. Just kidding.

And.........That is all.

Song: Happy
Artist:Ashanti
Dedicated to: Jr

Boy you fill me with so much joy
You give whatever it is I need,
My love here to stay won't ever leave.
So glad, that you fell in love with me
My love is so good that I wouldn't be without
You babe couldn't see me without you babe,
My love is so good that I wouldn't be without you
Babe couldn't see me without you baby,

All my life I've been searching for you, everyday, so glad
That I found you boy,
All my life I've been feeling for you, everyday
I'm so happy baby,

Boy you got me feeling so good you take all my pain away
From me without you around I couldn't be and I
Know you fell in love with me.
My love is so good that I wouldn't want to be without you babe
Couldn’t see me without you babe.
My love is so good that I wouldn't be without you baby couldn't see me
Without you baby.

All my life I've been searching for you everyday,
So glad that I found you boy,
All my life I've been feeling for you everyday
I'm so happy baby

I'm so happy that I fell in love
I thank God, He sent you from up above,
I'm so happy that I found someone, and I
Thank God he sent you from above.

All my life I've been searching for ya, everyday, so glad that
I found you boy, all my life I've been feeling for you everyday
I'm so happy baby.
All my life I've been searching for ya,
Everyday so glad that I found you boy, all my live I've been feeling
For you everyday I'm so happy baby.

Hmmm that I wouldn't be without you babe couldn't see me
Without you babe and I wouldn't be
Without you babe couldn't see me without you baby.


Jr thinks that it would be cool if we had songs for anniversaries…or something like that. I’m not sure what he was talking about when he was mentioning it. It’s hard to understand him sometimes…he just doesn’t make sense. Or maybe it’s because I wasn’t really listening. I’m just messing Jr. You know I love you.

Well yeah, I chose this song because well…just read the words…it basically describes how I feel about Jr.

HAPPY 15 MONTH ANNIVERSARY JR! I LOVE YOU!

Thank You for staying with me for so long. You should know that I will always love and care about you. Okay, I know, too lovey dovey. I'll stop now. Heh. (NOTE FOR JR: CHECK YOUR EMAIL)

So yeah…that is all.

First day of school…WAS CRAZY!

My plan for the first day of school:
Wake up early to find my classes and get a good parking space.

What actually happened: I woke up early, but I didn’t get a good parking space. I was driving around looking for a parking space, and well, I THOUGHT I found one…it was between these 2 monster trucks. And well, you know how monster trucks got some big ass wheels? So yeah, the wheels were like as big as my car or something. So I tried fitting in between there, but instead, I ended up hitting the tire of one of the trucks! And you know how tires are made out of rubber or something? So it was like I bounced back…just a little though. Luckily there was no mark cause well, it’s a tire.

Then I went to look for my 1st class, I wanted to go really early because I was on the waiting list. I was wandering around the damn school looking for 1671. And you know what? 1671 was on the opposite side of the campus. I didn’t know that. I was walking around totally lost and asking people where 1671 was. Luckily, I saw Francis, Francis is this guy that I used to know back in Hawaii…and he was with his friend. They were looking for 1670, so I just followed them. Francis was like, “Didn’t I used to know you before?” and then his friend was like, “Yeah, me too, I knew you in my dreams, we were boyfriend and girlfriend, but nothing more.” So I was like…uh…okay, sure. It was 9:30 by the time I got to my next class, but the class didn't start till 10, so I was just chillin’. I met these 2 chicks, I was talking to them for a while, but I didn't get their names. I was effin’ tired! I was walking around for 30 minutes or so trying to find a class. The class was good, and I got in.

I got into all my classes, all the classes that I was on the waiting list for, I got in. YEY! Hehe. I’m really happy about that.

So yeah, I met this one guy, his name was…Greg, I think. I don’t know, he’s Viet. He actually parked near me, so we walked together to the parking lot, and I asked him where he was going, and he said no where, so I just asked him if he wanted to go with me to buy my textbooks, and so, he did. He ended up driving though. Heh. Then when we got into the car, I was like, oh by the way, my name is Kat. Funny eh? No worries though, he knows that I have a boyfriend. That message was going out to Jr. Heh.

Got through the 1st day of school…I’m so glad! I have to read a chapter and write an essay…both due by Wednesday.

Tomorrow…1st day of Math class.

I guess the first day of school wasn’t that bad…just the beginning part I guess.

Then I went over to Sheryl Grace's house because I told her that I would, she was sad or something, so I brought her with me to Plaza Bonita so I can buy Jr's strategy guide. She fed me! Hehe. Well, she didn't feed me, feed me, she just gave me some pancit, some hot cheetos, and a cup of chocolate milk. :) I was eating while her friends talked about Sex and Pornos. Weird. I was just layin' on the couch, trying to sleep...but they were a little too loud. That's okay.

Anyways, that is all.

Exactly what is “popularity”?

Does anyone have a clear definition of what popular or popularity means?

The Webster’s New World Dictionary defines popular as - 1. accepted among people in general. 2. Liked by very many or most people. 3. very well liked by one’s friends and acquaintances.

The definition for Popularity is basically, the state or quality of being popular

I always thought that a “popular” person is someone whom is known by others, but that person doesn’t know who the others are. Know what I mean? Yeah, well, I guess my definition of popular is hard to explain or understand.

It’s weird though, most of the “popular” people at our school are snobs. How can everyone like them if they’re snobs? Weird ay? They only go to you when they want something…and they’re “too cool” to even say hi to you too. I mean, if you’re going to be popular, you could at least be pretty…but most of them are effin’ ugly!

The stand-outs…all “popular people”, ASB…all popular people. It really sucks.

I remember one time one of my friends was going to do this thing called, “Operation Up rise”. It was a plan to take over the popular people’s kick it place (which was called, “The Tree”, well, that’s what we called it). There was a day that all the “little people”, (he put them in categories, I forgot what they were called) would just go to “the tree” and stay there. It was a good plan, and it could have worked, but the thing with that was he chose Friday to do the operation, and Friday is Pep Rally day, and on Fridays, all the cool kids go to the pep rallies. So, the plan didn’t have much of an affect because the cool kids weren’t there to witness what was going on.

I wonder how will the cool kids be since it’s time for college now…I mean, popularity doesn’t really matter in college…does it? I don’t know, maybe I’m wrong.

She made something up…she said, “just think of it this way, you’re not too cool to be their friend, it’s just that, THEY’RE not cool enough to be YOUR friend.” For an incoming junior, she’s pretty smart.

I was supposed to make a point here, but I forgot what I was trying to say. Hm, I guess it wasn’t all that important.

A message from Jon, in a way I feel that it is related to this entry…or maybe I’m wrong. Eh, whatever. I fixed it up for you Jon...I corrected the errors and stuff...happy?
We’re all adults now. Shouldn't we be allowed to live our lives the way we want, without problems? All that high school BS is left behind us now. No more fucking popularity contest. No more being with someone cause they’re the cutest girl/guy in school. I got news for you, schools over. Life is here. There shouldn’t be anymore of that BS. Everyone should live their life according to what makes them happy. Don’t be with someone cause your friends think he/she is cute. If you know it’s not right, don’t go for it. If you wanna be with someone who makes you happy, be with him/her. Who cares if they’re not everything your friends wanted?! It’s your life. Key word there is YOUR. Honesty is really good. It really feels bad when someone breaks that bond, especially if that someone is really close to you. It’s always better to be straight up with someone rather then misleading them, and leading them into something you’re not prepared to engage in.

I got bored...

Which Disney Princess are you?

"You are one of the first Disney princesses to stand up for her rights as a woman. While you may NOT be a prize to be won, you are still quite the hottie, especially in that red harem girl outfit. Even when things may not seem the best at home, try to remember that running away from your problems solves little. You are easily tricked and manipulated, both by your enemies and people who love you. You have a special fondness for tigers."

That is all.

Hey there KAT’s friends! and to whoever reads this… KAT let me be a GUEST BLOG…isn’t that kind of her? NOT! j/k…hehe..i heart you kat…well, what should i talk about?! what’s on my mind, right?! DUHHHH! Hah…okay…COLLEGE is right around the corner and although i am not dorming i’m still excited to go…wow! i wanna meet people..and party! haha..well not really party (i’m not a partying type of person)…just meet new people…it’s gonna be FUN!…aside from all the studying that is…dude! i know the work is gonna be OVERWHELMiNG though….AHHHHHH! a lot of READiNG…ESSAYS…MiDTERMS…MORE ESSAYS…FiNALS!! studying all day/night! YAY!! How fun..right?! well, it’s worth it though! you know?! i went to my orientation at ucsd and it was pretty fun! i was able to experience one night of dorming there…and omg! i saw this really really cute guy..chinese, german, and white! Daaaaaaamn nice mix!..his name is *mark*… sucks to say that i didn’t talk to him.. =( maybe i’ll see him again at the library or maybe we’ll have a class together!! (crossing fingers AND toes) hah…but the bad thing is that he smokes…i was like WTH is he doing… oh yea! i was on a college campus and people are allowed to do that there…it was weird to see him smoke and not get in trouble…OKAY enough of this BLAH about a guy that i don’t even know…=\… hmm..let me reflect upon SENiOR year…well that was a different and interesting year..very different from all my high school years…DRAMA happened! =( drifted apart from a REALLY close buddy…we’re still friends it’s just not the same any more…had my first bf who turned out to be a effing a hole!!! i guess i could say i learned from the relationship though…over all i had a fun senior year! it was AWESOME! YEAAAA! =) a lot of great memories…i don’t really miss high school YET…i know i will later on…right now i’m just anxiously awaiting to go to college already!! it’s sooo boring at home…i need a job…i need money…i got my first interview tomorrow…and i’m scared!! =\….hmmm…right now i’m hella bored just listening to some slow jams…i looooooove slow jams -----> i’m a slow jam FREAK! hah..this is my second blog on kat’s blog…you didn’t read the first one because kat didn’t get it…i don’t know how to work the blogger so i e-mailed it to her and i didn’t save it..it’s okay though…if you don’t know kat you gotta know her! She’s really really cool! She’s the greatest…(sometimes) hehe…nooo ALL THE TiME…i met her during senior year…we were stuck in a group for English class…that was sooooo terrible…haha…j/k…i actually miss her bugging me almost EVERY SiNGLE DAY…okay i guess “THAT iS ALL” oh wait! my name is KAREN btw…heh…peace..

Heh…funny entry. Sounds just like Karen to be talking about school. *weirdo* Heh. Well yeah…it’s an old entry, I just got it today when I went to her house. I don’t know, something is wrong with her Yahoo email address. I won’t be seeing Karen that much cause she’s going to a better school http://ucsd.edu/…it’s okay though, Karen deserves it. It was cool hanging out with her today though. I bought her ice cream…and I almost got into an accident. Ohmigosh…driving is scary! I got a grip of songs from her. She’s a slow jam freak just like me. Karen got a nice car! Or is it an SUV? I don’t know…it’s nice! It’s a ’96 Lexus. It’s really nice…she’s going to rule the road with that sucka. Heh. Well, she’ll rule the road, once she learns how to drive it. Heh. So yeah…just like what Karen said…”that is all”

Me and Jon's conversation...

NytDogg619: so is our bet on KAT?
this 1 kat says: haha.
this 1 kat says: uh.
this 1 kat says: yeah.
this 1 kat says: i guess.
NytDogg619: alright...
NytDogg619: easyiest 5 bucks ill eer make
this 1 kat says: haha.
this 1 kat says: i think i just might wait till i'm 25
this 1 kat says: haha
this 1 kat says: so then i can get the 5 bucks
this 1 kat says: :-D
NytDogg619: heh
NytDogg619: i bet your gonna get caught up in the moment, and just get married
NytDogg619: watch
this 1 kat says: haha
this 1 kat says: we'll see
NytDogg619: im pretty sure

I'm going to wait till 25 or maybe older just so I can win the bet...you'll see. Heh.

This is off the subject...but just wanted to say that I got an A in my math class. Yey! Okay...That is all.

Planning a party really sucks and at times...it's really stressing too.

I set my alarm for 9 because that's when At'e Analyn told me to call her up...but she was sleepy when I called so I went back to sleep. Then she called again and we went out at 11 something.

We went to all these places...we got lost a couple of times too, Analyn is a scary driver (sometimes) but in the end, I got home a okay.

We went to this Chinese buffet place in Point Loma, and the girl that works there said that Analyn looked like she was 17...which is a lie cause she's actually 21...and she got my age correct, and she also said that I looked innocent. Haha...cool huh? Yes Jr...I'M INNOCENT! Sometimes...Heh.

I don't even want to have this party...I was all for just going out with the family to some restaurant and celebrating my birthday. But then my dad wants to have it some where else, and it's like, if you're going to have it some where else, might as well go big...right? Honestly, he gave me NOTHING to work with. All he said was to look for a place to have the party…but then the step mom said to check catering and so…I did. Then I ended up getting lectured about it too. My dad is talking about expensive…and it’s like…HELLO…if you don’t want anything to be expensive, then have it at the house! The sucky thing about getting lectured by my dad is that he repeats the same thing over and over. I felt bad for Analyn because she had to listen to it with me. I just wanted to get out! I was so irritated. Going to all these damn places and not finding anything good already irritated me. I hate being so picky…damn. I couldn’t find anything. So I just wanted to leave…and so, we went to the movies.

Brought Jr along with me…and guess what we watched…Triple X. Heh…the movie IS good, it’s just not that good enough to watch it twice. I was boored! But eh..it’s okay, Vin Diesel is still cute and as long as I wasn’t at home it was all good.

I don’t even know if I’m going to have candles and roses…cause ya know…that’s going to cost more and crap. So whatever…might as well let them plan most of it since planning it myself is getting me lectured.

Jon and I made this bet...he thinks that I'm going to get married at the age of 24...which is a LIE! I won't get married till I am financially stable and out of college. He's so sure of it that he bet $5! Heh...like I said..."we'll see".

And She, I know that you just sit there and stare at things. You know, stare at your board and think about what to write/draw, or stare in the refridgerator and realize that there is nothing to eat, or talk to your plants, or play the piano, or move from one place to another...haha. I know you Sheryl Grace! Hehe. Remember...NO MORE BAD STUFF...I GAVE YOU A LOLLI POP ALREADY! Hope you had fun at camp. I miss you!!! Let's chill okay?

Anyways.

"That's what had happened." Heh.That is all.

My parents have decided to give me an 18th birthday party. The thing is…I don’t even want one. It’s all them. They’re the ones that want me to have one, and even though they’re the ones that want me to have one, I have to plan it and all that other crap. They want me to have candles and roses…problem is, I’m really picky and I don’t know whom to put down as my candles and roses. The hardest one is with the roses, I’m not all that close with a lot of guys that’s why…so I don’t know whom to put down. Later on today, I’m gonna go out with my cousin so we can look for a place to have it at. Then I still have to find those little ribbon stuff so I can put them on the candles and roses, I have to find give a ways, find what to wear, get caterers, get entertainment, dj’s, and all this other crap. Too much…I’m really glad that I don’t have a court! *sorry for ya cat* hehe…I’m just kidding. But yeah...hopefully things will go great on the day that I have the party.

Jr and I watched “Triple X”…it’s a good movie. Vin Diesel is cute! Hehe. It would be even cooler if he did his own stunts, eh...it's okay I guess. Practice for Cat's debut is fun! Too bad Cat keeps messing up...heh...just kidding again. It would be even better if Jr's hands stopped sweating...I'M JUST KIDDING JR...DON'T BE MAD...I LOVE YOU!!! Uh, yeah, I think I better end it now...so...

That is all.

Went to Comic -Con this Saturday. It wasn't much fun...I think last year was WAAAAY better. There wasn't anything to "jill" and Jr withdrew a lot of money, he said..."in case we want to buy something", but I said, "why can't I just jill?" but he said No...well, there wasn't anything to jill anyways, so, I didn't. I wasn't in the mood.

I saw "Shiesty" there...he said that it was harder this year too, cause there were more security people than last year.

They didn't have free Sobe this year...and I was really thirsty.

Parking wasn't that bad, just parked at Sea Port, then after Comic-Con, we went to Sea Port and sat down on the grass...I was tired...too much walking.

Yep, nothing much, after Sea Port, I dropped Jr home, well, Jr dropped himself home with my car. Heh. Then I went home and went out with my brothers and my cousin. My older brothers and my cousin watched Austin Powers, and me and my little brother watched Master of Disguise...NOTE: DO NOT WATCH THAT MOVIE, IT IS A WASTE!...I had to watch it, had to go with my little brother...it was sooo gaay! Austin Powers was still on when our movie was over, so I sneaked into the theatre and my little brother followed, he was scared. Heh. It was funny.

Uh, nothing much on Sunday, went out with my brothers because it was my other brother's 26th birthday, then the family ate at the Noodle House.

And yeah, "thats what had happen" quote from She

And that is all.