We've been friends for a while.
I don't know where it changed to where my feelings changed.
When did I start having these ill feelings towards you?
I know that you're a good friend.
But somewhere along the way I started to get jealous, mad, envious...
All feelings a person should NOT have for a friend.
& for that I am sorry.
I am sorry that I felt the need to bring you down or to 1 up you.
I honestly don't know when that feeling started to take over me when it came to you.
I don't think I'm a malicious person.
I don't know when I started to feel like you were "stealing " my friends.
Perhaps the times you would talk to them without me.
Started hanging out with them without me..
I introduced you to these people,
Now you're closer to them & kicked me out.
I know that you are the type to need validation, I guess I felt like I needed some from you too.
I don't know what type of friendship we'll have, or when exactly did our friendship end, & how long were we/I was dragging it along for.
I guess this isn't something I have been able to come to terms with fully, I'm just trying to figure out the reason why...
I have become the stranger in the house.
